Nothing on TV?: Sunday, June 9

Although I didn’t watch this on Sunday, I’ve been meaning to post it because it’s the awesomist.

The Quantum Activist

There is a revolution going on in science. A genuine paradigm shift. While mainstream science remains materialist, a substantial number of scientists are supporting and developing a paradigm based on the primacy of consciousness. Amit Goswami, Ph.D., a pioneer of this revolutionary new perspective within science, shares with us his vision of the unlimited potential of consciousness as the ground of all being, and how this revelation can actually help us to live better. The Quantum Activist tells the story of a man who challenges us to rethink our very notions of existence and reality, with a force and scope not felt since Einstein. This film bridges the gap between God and Science. The work of Goswami, with stunning precision and without straying from the rigors of quantum mechanics, reveals the overarching unity inherent in the worlds major religions and mystical traditions. Meet the man behind the message as Dr. Goswami tells how he moved away from the religious teachings of his childhood, to seek his path in nuclear and theoretical quantum physics, and how he has come full circle, through quantum insight, back to the very religious axioms offered as a youth. Written by  Ted Golder


Nothing on TV?: June 5, 2013

I am going to start a new feature on the blog! Everyday I am going to post the videos that my husband and I watch in the evenings. Instead of watching primetime TV (which I used to do all the time), we now fill our evenings with informative, weird, fun and out-there nonfiction videos, movies and documentaries. Of course, sometimes the Bruins, Sox or the Celtics take precedent, but that’s cool because, hey, we live in the best sports town in ‘Merica and sometimes you gotta watch the boys.

Here were last nights selections! Right now it will be a lot of permaculture selections, as I have to (and want to!) watch these for the permaculture course I am taking in August. These are both fine to watch around children, by the way.

The Cosmic Giggle (this was AWESOME)

The Cosmic Giggle is an experimental documentary film that explores the human energy field’s dynamic relationship with our environment. Naturally as human beings, we are connected to a vast network of fluid information inherent to the world around us. When we are children, we are open to this field through simple innocent observance, but because of our collective evolution towards a dominating and fixated worldview, this perception becomes veiled. This film reveals how this process takes place and provides keys for returning to a more primal and authentic experience of our reality.

Temperate Permaculture Strategies, Parts 1-8

Permaculture in cool climates with Bill Mollison (he’s one of the founders of the idea of permaculture)

The Fall, Hell on Earth and How to Remedy It

We have created a hell on Earth. Most of us remain blinded to its firey prison, but it’s here. Most of you reading this are probably only in the outer circle of hell, not the very center of the agony. You may have to work 8–10 hrs a day at a job you hate to pay your mortgage, but you have a house. You may worry that you won’t have enough to leave your kid when you die, but your kid eats three meals a day, has people to love it and people to teach it. You think your life doesn’t have much point, but you get enough joy in the few hours you get to spend with your friends and family to keep you ticking. You may medicate heavily with alcohol, pot or pharmaceuticals, but all in the name of unwinding, relaxing, kicking back. Yes, this is only the outside circle of hell.

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War is a Racket

History is written by tragedy
And it maintains ugly secrets of intimacy
And struggles which nations ingest.
Covered in blood, we wept.

When one in a million is dark
And nine hundred and ninety-nine thousand are broke,
The upshot is guess who writes history?
The upshot is guess who will not?

A soldier will fight to the death.
And raggedly take his last breath,
For oil or land, the American Brand.
Now bodies lie still in the sand.

What are we doing? Who taught us to do this?
Ah, resources are scarce, we must get ours!
But we were told we were attacked, we must have honor and pride!
Stand by your country, lay down by it’s side!

But let me tell you a secret—
Borders mean nothing and are created by men,
Created by history
By those who would win.

And there’s nothing to win by fighting your brother,
Nothing you win by watching him suffer.
The real winner sits tight with his fat bank rolls,
While you, hollowed men, feel inside you go cold.

“United we stand, divided we fall”—
Let’s take that and apply it to world, to all.
Would you rather Earth perish in blood and destruction?
Or save it together at this critical junction?

Don’t glorify war, you fat-wallet assholes,
And say if we don’t, we’re unpatriotic.
Don’t see your limbs blown off in the field
Your haunted eyes afflicted with PTSD.

War is a racket, a divisive racket,
Used to put pride in the metals on your jacket.
But fighting for peace is an oxymoron.
Only peace brings peace and a greater tomorrow.

The history books say that this the way,
They fall open to pages of white men going gray.
Those books don’t talk of the time in between
When regular people lived regularly.

Our first motivation is to help and to hold
Not bloody our neighbor, not bomb his whole world.
Don’t let them sell you the lie of bad men
That were recorded to prove that we all live in sin.

We are all ONE

Quantum mechanics and super string theory now tell us we are and this whole world is all pure consciousness, just a function of the wave property of consciousness. Our thoughts and intentions create this world. Awaken your consciousness, change the world. If you don’t understand what that means, take a few minutes everyday to sit with your thoughts and think about who you are, why you’re here, what you’re doing and what it all means. You will only understand when you start being conscious of your consciousness. Being self-aware is the first step to understanding and liberation.


The “inherently evil” question

This post is dedicated to someone really important in my life. They will know who they are by the topic.

I think one of the greatest things holding back regular people from standing up to their government and the corporations who own them is they believe that people are inherently evil and that is why we will never be able to change anything on a mass scale. I have heard it said over and over – “People are bad! People are evil! People are corrupt!! People want power!! People are selfish!! We need elected officials to make laws for us because if they didn’t we’d all run around killing each other!!”

Damn, dude. Why the heck would anyone want to start a family? Or perpetuate their own lives at all, if they really believed that??

This black and white view of what humanity is is very damaging to the future of our species. Why don’t we instead take the view that something like moral actions (not doing things that hurt people) is a learned behavior. We do what we see as children and continue to act in those patterns until we are shown a very good reason to stop. Since birth we get showered with material crap and told it’s “ours.” And the more people like us, the more stuff we get at our birthdays. The more stuff we get, the more people like us and want to hang out with us. The idea of social acceptance is so based on money and material wealth it’s sickening.

When presented with that, why wouldn’t we want to go out and make as much money as we can, at whatever expense? Why wouldn’t we look at CEOs of huge corporations and think they are the ones to be emulated? They are winning in this system! Doesn’t it make you want to throw up in your mouth a little bit that the CEO of Phillip Morris, whose product LITERALLY kills thousands of people a year, is revered as a productive member of society, while an Occupier is jailed for sleeping in a park?

So, the fact that a few really messed up people (about 230 families) basically control the global economy and tell us these are the rules, is ACTUALLY the reason most people are acting in a non-empathetic way, not the fact that people are bad.

And herein lies what I believe about humanity. It’s basically a bell curve. There are a few people that are corrupt, most people can be easily swayed, and the ones trying to reveal the truth and institute a new cultural paradigm in this time of cultural depravity are looked at as naive, unsophisticated, stupid, or worse, crackpots. And right now, the money and the power are concentrated in the hands of the ones acting corrupt. So the masses are swayed by the lure of material wealth and all that comes with it (personal freedom and power).

So, we are not bad, we are easily swayed. Swayed towards the only thing that is looked as acceptable in our culture – make money, consume, make money, consume, think about self, make money, consume.

When talking to people about The Zeitgeist Movement I’ve had some say to me that it’s not money that’s the problem, it’s power. They are right. You can’t just get rid of money and think a Resource Based Economy will just happen naturally. It requires more than that – it requires the shift to believing in humanity rather than believing it’s doomed. It requires believing in your heart that people genuinely want to help others if given the opportunity. It requires believing that if people have their needs met, most people will not hoard more stuff, most people will not go out and steal more, most people will not try to hatch a plan to have power over others. If you’ve been loved, fed, sheltered, clothed and cared for, you would not feel the need to go out and trounce on top of others…what would be your reward? You wouldn’t get more “stuff” because “stuff” would be free. You wouldn’t have anything others didn’t have, because everything is open source. There would be absolutely no reason for someone to try to be more powerful than the next. It wouldn’t make sense in this context.

There are a plethora of new studies that say children as young as 15 months grasp the concept of equality and sharing. But instead of that making main stream news, we see stories about youth violence and gangs and depravity. We see what is cherry-picked for us to see on the main stream channels. TURN YOUR TV OFF. Turn your logical mind on.

By believing that YOU SHAPE YOURSELF, YOUR WORLD, YOUR CHILDREN AND YOUR COMMUNITY, you believe that you can change the world.

And in conclusion, I would like to offer this movie I just watched today, on Patriot’s Day of all things (I am a patriot of Earth). This is a compilation of Internet footage, with no identified narrator, no person taking credit.  It documents The Arab Spring, Occupy Wall Street, Transition Movement, Permaculture, The Zeitgeist Movement, The Venus Project and Anonymous. This movie is inspiring and to me is proof in the face of everything, that people are waking up, looking at the evil that has been spread far and wide and saying “Fuck, no. This isn’t my world. I didn’t have a part in making this. I AM NOT THIS. I AM NOT EVIL. I WON’T PARTICIPATE IN THIS ANYMORE. And I’m doing something about it.” This is proof that people can be swayed to good the same way they can be swayed to evil.

In fact, we are in the midst of an evolutionary change – global empathy. It’s going to be (and already is) beautiful.

What is happening and why it’s happening now

These short videos express EXACTLY how I feel and what I am trying to communicate in my blog. It’s religion, science, spirituality, humanity and love all wrapped up into what it means to be alive right now. If all is one and one is all, WE ARE  CREATORS AND WE SHAPE REALITY. It’s time we realized it. Enjoy!

Our quantum world, Part I (please don’t not open this post because it has the word quantum in it!)

The term “quantum” didn’t really make sense to me until the last year or so. I’ve been fascinated with quantum mechanics for a long time, but I didn’t really get why it was even called that. And then there was the show “Quantum Leap” which was about time travel and that really didn’t make it any clearer.

But something clicked for me when I was reading the biography Einstein by Walter Isaacson. Einstein helped discover the quantum nature of light. Basically, light is emitted in packets that are an exact value. No more, no less. It’s like looking at a jelly bean and knowing you can’t break the jelly bean into anymore pieces. That is the smallest amount of jelly bean you can have. There is no value between it and nothing. And no value between one jelly bean and two jelly beans. Quantized things jump from one state or amount to another, with no, or very little in between. Think about when we all learned about electrons back in middle school. Electrons orbit the nucleus of an atom, but they do at set distances from the nucleus. They can jump from one distance to another, but they can’t orbit anywhere in between those set distances. And when they go to an energy state that is lower than the one they are in, they emit energy in specific quantities (hence the word quantum).

Quantum mechanics is full of crazy stuff. Like definitive proof that things only appear like they do when we’re looking at them (when observed, particles collapse from a wave of possibilities into one possibility, the one you’re witnessing). And demonstrating how something we do in the present affects something that happens in the future. Or an action on a particle will affect another particle millions of light years away instantaneously (or what Einstein called “spooky action at a distance” and was thought impossible b/c it means something is traveling faster than the speed of light).

These results sound impossible, but the effects have been replicated again and again and again. So far, every action predicted by quantum physics that has been able to be set up experimentally has been proven correct. It’s the most accurate theory physics has ever seen.

Binary code is based on the same principle. You either have a 1 or a 0, nothing in between. Two choices, on or off. No sort-of-on or sort-of-off. Either the switch is flipped or it’s not. And when a switch is flipped, it means something happens. And maybe it takes many, many switches flipping to the 1 or the 0 position for another, larger level switch to flip. And so on. (Keep this in mind for a fun thought experiment in Part II!)

Most of you probably think that quantum physics has nothing to do with you. Scientists hadn’t been able to extrapolate quantum physics to apply to large, real world motion….until now.

Published in Science, Quantum Correlation Between Distant Diamonds, takes the idea of quantum entanglement that has been proven again and again and demonstrates the same effect on two millimeter sized diamonds sitting 15 cm apart. In other words, quantum effects demonstrated at the macro level, or the realm of the naked eye.

Scientists at Rice University have published an amazing finding in the journal Nature Physics. It’s a complicated study, but it boils down to the fact that many things (in this case, electron-hole pairs created in a semiconductor) have been shown to act in coordination with each other all at once. Basically, a light is shined on a substance, and instead of emitting light randomly as it is absorbed and released by electrons, when the light is intense enough, it causes the electrons to sort of all line up together, spontaneously, and emit all their light at once. I like to think of this is it reaching “critical mass.” Once a certain thresh hold is reached, the flood gates let go. This is quantized because if you are looking at it like a time line, you have no light emittance…no light emittance…no light emittance and then BAM you have it all emitted at once. No in-between. Quantized.

Now that we have seen that quantum effects can be observed at the macro level, and that mass cooperation of seemingly disparate bodies can create a critical mass, we are prepared to examine how this affects us.

Critical mass is the idea that there is a tipping point—that if you get enough of a group of animals, people, or things, to take on or demonstrate an attribute, then that attribute will spread to the rest of the population almost instantaneously. You go from a critical mass of people doing something, to everyone doing it. Quantized.

A great examples of critical mass effects is the “10oth Monkey Effect.” In this article by Own Waters, he describes this:

The Hundredth Monkey Effect was first introduced by biologist Lyall Watson in his 1980 book, ‘Lifetide.’ He reported that Japanese primatologists, who were studying Macaques monkeys in the wild in the 1950s, had stumbled upon a surprising phenomenon.

The Japanese monkey, Macaca fuscata, had been observed in the wild for a period of over 30 years. In 1952, on the island of Koshima, scientists were providing monkeys with sweet potatoes dropped in the sand. The monkeys liked the taste of the raw sweet potatoes, but they found the dirt unpleasant.

An 18 month old female named Imo found she could solve the problem by washing the potatoes in a nearby stream. She taught this trick to her mother. Her playmates also learned this new way and they taught their mothers too. This cultural innovation was gradually picked up by various monkeys before the eyes of the scientists. Between 1952 and 1958 all the young monkeys learned to wash the sandy sweet potatoes to make them more palatable. Only the adults who imitated their children learned this social improvement. Other adults kept eating the dirty sweet potatoes.

Then something startling took place. In the autumn of 1958, a certain number of Koshima monkeys were washing sweet potatoes — the exact number is not known. Let us suppose that when the sun rose one morning there were 99 monkeys on Koshima Island who had learned to wash their sweet potatoes. Let’s further suppose that later that morning, the hundredth monkey learned to wash potatoes.

Then it happened! By that evening almost everyone in the tribe was washing sweet potatoes before eating them. The added energy of this hundredth monkey somehow created an ideological breakthrough!

A most surprising thing observed by these scientists was that the habit of washing sweet potatoes then jumped over the sea –Colonies of monkeys on other islands and the mainland troop of monkeys at Takasakiyama began washing their sweet potatoes. Thus, when a certain critical number achieves an awareness, this new awareness may be communicated from mind to mind.

To describe this in a “quantum way” would be to say that when a certain switch is flipped from on to off (100th monkey), this floods the consciousness grid of the planet (because we are all connected, all made of the same stuff) with the idea of washing sweet potatoes and it is suddenly available to everyone all at once. When only a few monkeys are washing potatoes, the idea is literally contained in a smaller area (as energy), but when a tipping point happens, the info jumps from a small area, to the next largest area and is literally available to more people’s consciousness.

I’m gonna go ahead an post this as Part 1 of a series of posts on quantum effects. It’s a big honkin’ subject that I know probably bores a lot of people, but it’s imperative if you want to understand the way the world is changing. And I firmly believe the changes are for the good.

Birthday wishes

It was my birthday yesterday. One of my oldest and dearest friends gave me an amazing gift. It’s a journal. She saw the cover art and thought it was cool. And then she saw it was a journal and she thought oh even better, Kim probably needs a journal. Then she turned it over. This is what it said:


“The covers of the 12 blank journals in the Medicine Wheel series present an astrology of the earth taught by the renowned Native American Teacher Sun Bear.
The Rest and Cleansing Moon: January 20–Feb 18
Animal: Otter
Plant: Quaking Aspen
Mineral: Silver
Color: Silver
Element: Air (Butterfly Clan)

People born under this moon have the capacity to be extremely psychic and visionary as well as highly intellectual. They are always searching both philosophically and concretely for ways to help others. Otter people truly like others and make good, trustworthy friends. People of this moon love to talk, debate, and romantic pursuits, and excel at all three. Otter people need to remember to listen to their intuition. If they do, they are powerful dreamers who have the capacity to turn their dreams into reality.”


When I read it, tears came to my eyes. If my dreams can be made into realities, here are my birthday wishes. Will you help me realize them?

I wish that people would wake up, look at themselves, I mean really examine themselves, and figure out what their pain points are, what their strengths are, why your past has made you what you are, and understand how that information can and does affect your life every day.

I wish that people would forgive those that have wronged them.

I wish that money and material shit would have no relevance in anyone’s minds.

I wish that every person on this Earth would be able to appreciate its beauty because all of their needs are met and they no longer have to worry about where their next meal is coming from.

I wish that everyone would realize their worth and potential as humans. I wish more people would listen to their intuition instead of social constructs telling them what they are “supposed” to do, what they are supposed to be, and how they are supposed to live.

I wish people would stop listening to the fear the mainstream media spreads, and instead find news stories that inspire you to do something.

I wish people would be honest—with themselves and their loved ones.

I wish the horrifying game of the monetary system would be ended once and for all, so that we can finally understand who we are, how powerful we are, and that we can heal this Earth and ourselves.

I wish for you all to love yourselves and love each other.

I wish for peace for the human family.

“I hate Kim” bracelets; or the power of neutral thinking

My husband and I were at a rest stop while driving to his family’s early Christmas celebration in December and as we were walking into the building a man was pulling open the door to leave. You know how that can be awkward – you’re trying to figure out if they’re holding the door for you, or if you should grab it from them. A little door holding dance. Well, this guy ended up going around me, but held the door open for so long to make sure I was thru that my husband said something about how I almost ended up limbo-ing under the guy’s arm he was so determined to hold the door.

I’d noticed it too, and the man smiled nicely as he was doing it. (And it wasn’t like he was trying to hit on me – he was older, with a wife, and my husband was right behind me.) Right then I started putting together in my head the amount of random niceness I’d seen lately. It’s actually a lot. Have any of you noticed it? I feel like more people are saying “thank you.” More people are smiling at me randomly in lines at the grocery store. I’ve had just random people walking down the street in the city smile and nod. That NEVER used to happen to me.

At the same time this is going on, the amount of vitriol, hate and judgement that we see on TV and hear about behind closed doors is skyrocketing. The comments on any internet news article are filled with racist, prejudiced words. Our politicians get nastier and more hateful as the months go on. Jackasses almost clip you on the road as you’re crossing in a crosswalk, and don’t even look at you as you raise your hands in disbelief. People on their cell phones ignore the fact that there is anyone around them and talk and talk with no regard to the fact that you are two inches away from them on the T. What is happening?

I personally believe that we have come to a sort of societal crossroads. We are watching what is presented to us in the media and we are doing one of two things: we are either unconsciously allowing the values that we are bombarded with on TV and advertising take hold of us and guide us on a path that gets more and more selfish, more and more judgemental,  more and more shallow, and more and more destructive; or, we have recognized this and are in various stages of resisting this and trying to figure out what to do about it. The polarity of the current times is becoming more and more obvious. (Isn’t it strange that at the same time income inequality is also getting more and more pronounced?)

One thing that is personally helping me as I try to fill the world with more love than shit is this: neutral thinking. I’ve explained this concept to a couple of my friends and both of their reactions were “Oh I can’t do that. I’m so not there.” Well, I think we can all get there eventually. It just takes practice.

I learned what neutral thinking was a few months ago when I was reading about meditation and trying to see if it was something I could start doing. When a person meditates, they most likely try to focus on something like their breathing, or a mantra. And then they are told to watch their thoughts as they drift into their heads, but don’t pay them much mind. The point is to realize you are much much more than the thoughts you think and these thoughts do not control you. If you feel the impulse to call your ex the minute you break up with your current flame, that doesn’t mean you HAVE to. It just means it’s a thought you had.

Neutral thinking is very similar to meditating. You basically attempt to hold the thought in your head of neutrality and not let good or bad thoughts effect the way you live your life. You hold the thought in your head that whatever you are experiencing, whatever someone does to you, whatever someone says to you, you are NOT programmed to act in any certain way (either because of your genes, how you were raised, who your friends are, etc). If your spouse comes home and is in a shit mood and says something rude to you, instead of replying back with the first nasty think you can think of, STOP, breathe, realize that in this moment you are mad, but that doesn’t mean you will feel like this forever. If your friend doesn’t call you back when she said she would, DON’T freak out and think she is ignoring you and text her nonstop demanding to know what is going on. STOP and think about the possibilities of why she might not be able to and don’t act on the first think you think.

Neutral thinking is also a great way to deal with stress about upcoming events or things you are worried about. If you have a presentation coming up, practice and do all that good stuff to prepare. But, in the hours you are not preparing, try not to sit and think things like “oh my god I’m going to do so bad…oh man, what if this sounds dumb…what if I start sweating….what if I look like a kissass….what if no one responds.” All this does is raise the amount of cortisol (the stress hormone) in your body and contribute to umpteen million health problems associated with stress. And you will find it very hard to be happy.

"Pout" A drawing I did in the throws of my social anxiety. This is often how I felt at parties.

These are thoughts I used to be riddled with, especially in terms of social interactions. Worry worry worry, wringing of the hands, laying awake at night, wondering whether I should open my mouth at all. See, I’ve tended to sort of say things without thinking throughout my life. It’s like my filter isn’t there. Once, when I was at the end of a first interview for a job, I reached out and shook my interviewer’s hand and said “thanks, great meeting you,” leaned down to get my bag and followed that up with “well, this went well.” Out loud. Like WHAAAT? Who does that??? She just sort of kept smiling and said “yes…” I ended up getting the job, but I felt like such a tool, and I was sure I had blown it.

I also went through a much more dramatic event when I was 11 that involved my entire class turning on me and making “I hate Kim” bracelets that everyone wore for a couple weeks (these were made of the finest paperclips in the classroom). This was a direct result of me feeling the need to always remind people I was smart and “popular.”  I was your typical mean girl. I thought I was smarter than everyone and cooler than everyone and I had no filter to tell me to stop telling people I thought I was really awesome. And I got a big dose of medicine in two weeks of being ostracized. And after the dust cleared and I grew up a little bit, I realized that was one of the best and most humbling things that could have happened to me. At the same time, though, it did feed into me being afraid to say what was on my mind for fear of sounding snotty or annoying. One problem conquered (big ego), another rears its head (social anxiety).

Neutral thinking has really helped me deal with a lot of this social anxiety. I now realize that if my intentions are good, but I say something sort of weird or inappropriate, it’s OKAY. I will live to see another day. And I will be fine. Everything will be just fine. And if I screw up and hurt somebody’s feelings, I will apologize for my mistake, learn from it and (hopefully) not make the same mistake again.

These sort of negative or hyper-excited thoughts consume many of us. (Hyper excited thoughts can be just as damaging as negative ones, especially if they are like “eggs all in one basket” sort of thoughts). When these thoughts come, instead try to focus on keeping your mind neutral. That’s it – don’t beat yourself up for thinking them, don’t try to distract yourself with something else. Just try to be neutral. And when you are being neutral, you will have a much easier time figuring out the right course of action. I guess it’s another way of talking about living in the moment. Stop dwelling on the past or worrying about the future. And just be.

The best thing it’s done for me is now if someone says something that angers me, I just stare at them. That’s it. I stare and try to concentrate on the staring and keeping my mind neutral. It calms me down and helps me formulate a much more useful response, and sometimes my anger will actually dissipate as I’m staring. (And that is huge for me, cuz I kind of have a teeny bit of a temper.)

Honestly, it’s the most liberating thing in the world. Give it a try. You won’t be sorry.

P.S. Neutral thinking also helps when I start thinking I haven’t been posting enough here (or doing enough art or fill it whatever it is you do). When I have that thought, I try instead to think, neutrally, that I know I will post when I am inspired to, because I always do. And that stops me from beating myself up. Ahhhh. It’s niiieecce!

P.P.S. Another great thing about neutral thinking that I should have included – it really helps judgementalness. I used to judge all the time. What someone was wearing, why they were talking a certain way, why they were doing what ever it is they were doing. Gah, it’s so unhealthy. When those thoughts start to form in my head I just think “neutral neutral neutral.” And I try to just think “this is a person doing whatever they do for many reasons I can’t fathom. That’s it.” And if I have to get a judgey fix in, I’ll look at Fashion Police on Eonline or something and see how tragic Fergie’s last outfit was.